The Methods of the Mystic Lover
Your Name, Child?
Little girl they say
What shall we call you today
Your weakness shows in your eyes
Your little heart has too much pride
Shall we call you reckless because of your action
Or shall we give you a name of attraction
You're quite witty indeed
Btu we fear that you also have greed
Not greed for money or for clothes
But greed for knowledge you'll never know
Your name lies beneath the surface
Ever longing for its true purpose
Skin as smooth as the silk in which you lay
The womb of your mother being your coat each day
How lovely your button nose twinkles in the sun
How much we love your chubby hands and girlish fun
Truly whatever we decide must be suitable for a princess
For what else could you be
Perhaps we should just call you royal
We promise to always be loyal
Our baby girl only deserves the best
A love so pure it never has to be put to test
The idea of you leaving us one day breaks out hearts
But we both know that once your little soul starts
The entire world will be witness to what that soul embarks
Oh, must you grow so soon
Must you leave us for the moon
Send down your shooting stars filled with blues and golds
Be sure to tell us of the stories that your life will unfold
The glistening of your eyes is the brightest light
The touch of your hand is warmth on the coldest night
What shall we call a baby girl with so much insight
With a mind that can see into the darkest depths of twilight
We may have found the name meant just for you
Venus is what you shall be called from this day forward
For you are not simply a star
Venus, my dear, you are so much more
A Candid Analysis of the Fragile Heart
Venus...
How satirical is that
The anme of beauty gifted to the beast amongst the hideous
The pimples on my flesh dissolve any change of beauty underneath
My hair is an untamed fur that God decided to plop on top for decoration
Somehow, I am able to bit my nails into oblivion
I pray for the day
On that day, I won't be sixteen
On that day, I'll be beautiful...
The taste of liquor on my taste buds only cajoles me to go further
His grip on my waist is that of a man
Desperation for his gaze as I hold out my hand
I am twenty-one today
Is my youth solidified
My womanhood electrified
My curves too voluptuous
The way my body winds is too flirtatious
My body too vivacious
Slightly seductive and exceptionally contagious...
The bed I wake up in is not my own
The disgust I feel throughout my soul won't leave me alone
How foolish could I be
I let the one night where I was beautiful get the best of me
My head pounds with regret
My thighs sting from damage
The vomit blazes in my throat
"Just move on" they tell me
"There is nothing you can do to change the past"
But now I sit with a hole in my heart that intends to last
I need a resolution
I don't hear God giving me an answer soon enough
But the pills on my dresser are like diamonds in the rough
One pill, blue pills, green pills, more pills
Oh, how exciting
I'm on my beautiful high again, and it is very enticing
On the journey I go through my life
Never afraid of what may come as a foe
For I am done worrying over the miniscule
I'd rather stay on this bliss
For I am done worrying about who I can't please
And all of my objections can be blown away with a kiss...
They have to beat my heart to awaken for the second time this year
I wish they would just let me die
The overdoses only fueled my desperation to get high
Higher and higher I go
But the lows become too low
My mother slaps me awake with a vengeance
My father can't stand to look my way
I can't stand to look at my reflection
"You need help, my baby" my mother cries
And no matter my frustration, I know the glistening of my eyes reveal all my lies
To rehab I go to cure this serious ailment
But I'll always be an addict
No matter how clean I get or how successful I become
The mistakes of my fragile heart will always be bothersome
